First and formost, i would like to thank God, for seeing us through once again. Lord, You have blessed us so greatly, and we are ever so thankful. =)
Sometimes when things dont seem like they're going right. Don't lost faith, don't lose hope.
Thanks lucy also "..for everything thing else, theres... ma.. "
haha. you know.
hey! we are supposed to be painting! haha. at least i should be, my hols project AND my wall. haha!
"..don't lean your face on the handlebar."=)
hands are much better aren't they? *chuckle.
Monday, June 27, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
its about fujiwara tofu.
initial D the movie is so cool.
somehow, im rather happy now that i got my license in manual. hahaha.
hope you had a fun time, russ!
im sure. then im not again. im sure. then im not. im sure?
when i finally give in. when i finally throw in the towel. suddenly it seems like an empty fight.
so tell me if it's empty.
im tired of fighting.
somehow, im rather happy now that i got my license in manual. hahaha.
hope you had a fun time, russ!
im sure. then im not again. im sure. then im not. im sure?
when i finally give in. when i finally throw in the towel. suddenly it seems like an empty fight.
so tell me if it's empty.
im tired of fighting.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
GROVE STREET. 4 LIFE.
i found this (somewhat) ancient photo of myself somewhere in my computer today. cant really remember what the weighing scale measured then.. similar hair ( as now, after cutting ). whatever it is, i think this was at least a couple of years ago. and whatever happened to that shirt. been looking all over for it!
San Andreas has gotten the better of me for the past 3 days. i cant believe it. didnt think i could still spend so much time playing games (thought i had grown outta all that. apparently not) mmm..otherwise today was a pretty good day! DETROIT WON! yeah! it's game 7, baby! not over yet!
Deeeeeeeeeeeeetroit! BASKETBALL! hahahaha. only kev would get this.
went running/jogging again for the first time in a long time. really enjoyable, even though it was mighty cold today. and there was a really nice sunset. mmm...thank you! =D haha. First time on the swings in a billiongazillion years too, and i finally know where the fabled cg bball court is. finally! haha. yes im slow la.
Something (/one) tells me that im going to pick up my pen, pencil and brush again. soon. reaaal soon.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
finally.
i've finally mustered enough willpower to get on blogger.com. haha. feels kinda weird. one of the main reasons why i sorta stopped for a week or so was mainly cuz' of my exams. it was pretty crazy to tell you the truth. i don't believe i've ever seen the sunrise from this apartment of mine on so many consecutive days. and what a spectacular sunrise it is. well all this because of studying till' two in the morning and waking up at six to make an effort at cramming whatever i can till' i have to face reality at nine when the exam starts. I did however realise something (ok not really cuz i've known this all along but pple dont believe me) that i really AM A MORNING PERSON. i am k. haha. contrary to what the possibly the whole world is thinking right now. I AM. so there. gahaha.
but this only applies when i get out of bed when its still dark. like 6am or something. somehow.
living with kevin this past week has been quite refreshing. after living alone for sucha long time (k not really) i've actually grown to be a person who enjoys his solitude. but to actually have someone around to goof around with and play games and eat and all that is a change from my usual routine. Ohwell its coming to an end now. kev is flying back to philippines after his paper on tuesday. (grrr. not fair) guess i'll see him on weekends at russell's after he gets back.
after this loooong stretch of exam stress (and constantly having this THING at the back of your mind that kinda picks at you telling you that you're not studying enough and this and that), it is very weird to wake up each day not knowing what to do with yourself. i mean. i might even go as far as to say i feel a little lost sometimes. haha. just too much free time. is that a good thing? (i know pple still having exams who would so throw a shoe at me right now) but well i guess it because it just hasn't sunk in yet. it's been what..4 days since my exams ended? haha. probably by tmr i'll get back on track. today marked the first time in a long time i actually spent the whole day at home playing game. GTA San Andreas to be exact. So it's justified i suppose. heh. but i really don't want to spend my holidays just sitting at home and bumming (although that would be nice) i really want to get out there and do something with myself. i suppose its also because not everyone has finished their exams as well. it's sorta lonely when its only you. haha. (again, some pple would want to throw something at me. RIGHT NOW) mmm..will start some sorta program thingy tmr. to set out what i want accomplished this holiday. haha. trust me it will involve alot of things to do with getting fit. bwahaha. fat clunks aren't we, eh max?
i suddenly realised that i've written a substantial amount as compared to my regular 'leave-a-line-in-the-middle' entries. Or my 'song-or-thoughtfully-written-poem' entries too. figured there has been too much of both recently. so i decided to blog about something more 'real' . heh. just to keep things fresh.
Oh well. guess i'll end here. it's nearing two am. kevin is already sleeping and i should too. (maybe after abit of reading) here's a shout out to all y'all who's still havin' exams. Good luck and all the best! Have faith in Him that He'll see you through! =D
im out.
peace
but this only applies when i get out of bed when its still dark. like 6am or something. somehow.
living with kevin this past week has been quite refreshing. after living alone for sucha long time (k not really) i've actually grown to be a person who enjoys his solitude. but to actually have someone around to goof around with and play games and eat and all that is a change from my usual routine. Ohwell its coming to an end now. kev is flying back to philippines after his paper on tuesday. (grrr. not fair) guess i'll see him on weekends at russell's after he gets back.
after this loooong stretch of exam stress (and constantly having this THING at the back of your mind that kinda picks at you telling you that you're not studying enough and this and that), it is very weird to wake up each day not knowing what to do with yourself. i mean. i might even go as far as to say i feel a little lost sometimes. haha. just too much free time. is that a good thing? (i know pple still having exams who would so throw a shoe at me right now) but well i guess it because it just hasn't sunk in yet. it's been what..4 days since my exams ended? haha. probably by tmr i'll get back on track. today marked the first time in a long time i actually spent the whole day at home playing game. GTA San Andreas to be exact. So it's justified i suppose. heh. but i really don't want to spend my holidays just sitting at home and bumming (although that would be nice) i really want to get out there and do something with myself. i suppose its also because not everyone has finished their exams as well. it's sorta lonely when its only you. haha. (again, some pple would want to throw something at me. RIGHT NOW) mmm..will start some sorta program thingy tmr. to set out what i want accomplished this holiday. haha. trust me it will involve alot of things to do with getting fit. bwahaha. fat clunks aren't we, eh max?
i suddenly realised that i've written a substantial amount as compared to my regular 'leave-a-line-in-the-middle' entries. Or my 'song-or-thoughtfully-written-poem' entries too. figured there has been too much of both recently. so i decided to blog about something more 'real' . heh. just to keep things fresh.
Oh well. guess i'll end here. it's nearing two am. kevin is already sleeping and i should too. (maybe after abit of reading) here's a shout out to all y'all who's still havin' exams. Good luck and all the best! Have faith in Him that He'll see you through! =D
im out.
peace
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
when in rome.
Sixteen moments
passed as i came
I'd thought i'd let go
of fortune and fame
well did i ever
want to do this thing right
and no i'd never ever
want to lose sight
of You
Believing in You
I'll see
Because only of You
I dream
So show me the way
I'll follow
the Truth
When I see the light
you'll see it too
I believe in miracles
just wanna see you shine
shining brightly
like pearls in the light
and never again
i'll won't lay around by night
'cause i'll be waitin'
just for the right time
It's true
Believing in You
I'll see
Because only of You
I dream
So show me the way
I'll follow
the Truth
When I see the light
you'll see it too
when the dust has settled
i'll be just fine
and maybe its here
could be just
my mind
but no matter what
or how things could go
there by your side
just let Him flow
Right next to you
i may be
But inside of you
He can see
so just for a little while
wait. hear the rain
Singin' i'm never gonna be
the same
again
Monday, June 13, 2005
escape.
Yes there is a light.
dim, in the distance
between darkness
in the night
delicate
at times
but unyielding
to the coldness within
both emanate
whisper
the icy kiss
on the bounteous prize
teeming with the glow
of that very light
It is hidden
both are
trapped within the steel
a chamber that confines
yet
you alone have the key
the power to open the gates
to release the hold
that prolongs
that of within
and all this is only
when you feel
so what do you think im talking about?
dim, in the distance
between darkness
in the night
delicate
at times
but unyielding
to the coldness within
both emanate
whisper
the icy kiss
on the bounteous prize
teeming with the glow
of that very light
It is hidden
both are
trapped within the steel
a chamber that confines
yet
you alone have the key
the power to open the gates
to release the hold
that prolongs
that of within
and all this is only
when you feel
so what do you think im talking about?
Sunday, June 12, 2005
those who wait
how did i not see.
all this time.
since then.
i've been trying.
when did i slip?
i know not.
after running for all this while
i realise 'twas here all along.
how did you break through?
i ask myself.
and i can't find the answer.
sadly
when i do see
when i realise
when it hits me
its already too late.
all this time.
since then.
i've been trying.
when did i slip?
i know not.
after running for all this while
i realise 'twas here all along.
how did you break through?
i ask myself.
and i can't find the answer.
sadly
when i do see
when i realise
when it hits me
its already too late.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
ack.
Im tired. physically. mentally.
but not spiritually.
today didn't turn out quite the way i would've liked it to.
but it doesnt matter.
You're there.
but not spiritually.
today didn't turn out quite the way i would've liked it to.
but it doesnt matter.
You're there.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Refusing to give in.
Yesss its been awhile since i last had an entry. If you would like to know. it has to do with the exams coming up. all 4 of 'em. I really did intend to 'camp' at home. seclude and exclude myself from everything else. sit meself down n just hit the books. hard.
As it is. Things never go to plan. Why am i not surprised.
Its sunday today. just got hm from church. Great message it was. One that i'll definitely take with me for all the years to come. Its two days before the first exam on tuesday morning. which leaves me...the rest of today + tmr to finish preparing for it. Once i get past this week!! arghhh. property ain't really that bad. its structures that is the hard one. Intensive studying, i need. Concentrate on what's ahead, i must do. Stop speaking like Yoda, just for the lame-ness of it, have to at least for the rest of this paragraph.
Sometimes i wish i'd just go get my 3 phone repaired. cant seem to get around to it. mmmmm. haveto haveto haveto. Haveto this. Haveto that.
Tell you what i need. I need to relax.
I need You.
i cant do without You. and i cant do it without You.
and i think i sleep way to much for my own good. yes yes, the eyebags, i know. but they're there all the time really. sleep is good. but there's a time for things. and now is really not a time for sleep. ive written this post in 3 seperate sessions. in the afternoon, evening and night saving it as a draft to continue each time.
Incredibly, the title of this post has been ringing in my head everytime i log into blogger.com today. Each and everytime. thats kinda weird considering i clean forget what i had previously wrote in each individual session. Guess that shows whats REALLY in my head. at the back of mind, throughout all the study n knowledge on the surface. and all the sidetracking written above.
I refuse to give in. I will persevere. Perhaps not for my own good but it doesnt matter. you dont know. and it aint about me. it shouldnt be. i only have one part in this. all the whys i ask myself. the uncertainties. its breathtaking sometimes. yet it seems so natural. just how did you come into the picture. it hasnt been easy to say the least. and it probably wont be for a good while. but since i get to pour it all out to Him, i really shouldnt worry so much. i believe. perhaps not in myself but in Him definitely. don't know where i will be led, but ive stopped wondering. imagining. trying to find a logical way out. but ive come to realise. there IS no logical way out. there is no planning, no preparing. no point thinking so much. there is only trust, and faith. because it is that great. because it is unpredictable.
And so i refuse to give in.
thats whats really on my mind.
As it is. Things never go to plan. Why am i not surprised.
Its sunday today. just got hm from church. Great message it was. One that i'll definitely take with me for all the years to come. Its two days before the first exam on tuesday morning. which leaves me...the rest of today + tmr to finish preparing for it. Once i get past this week!! arghhh. property ain't really that bad. its structures that is the hard one. Intensive studying, i need. Concentrate on what's ahead, i must do. Stop speaking like Yoda, just for the lame-ness of it, have to at least for the rest of this paragraph.
Sometimes i wish i'd just go get my 3 phone repaired. cant seem to get around to it. mmmmm. haveto haveto haveto. Haveto this. Haveto that.
Tell you what i need. I need to relax.
I need You.
i cant do without You. and i cant do it without You.
and i think i sleep way to much for my own good. yes yes, the eyebags, i know. but they're there all the time really. sleep is good. but there's a time for things. and now is really not a time for sleep. ive written this post in 3 seperate sessions. in the afternoon, evening and night saving it as a draft to continue each time.
Incredibly, the title of this post has been ringing in my head everytime i log into blogger.com today. Each and everytime. thats kinda weird considering i clean forget what i had previously wrote in each individual session. Guess that shows whats REALLY in my head. at the back of mind, throughout all the study n knowledge on the surface. and all the sidetracking written above.
I refuse to give in. I will persevere. Perhaps not for my own good but it doesnt matter. you dont know. and it aint about me. it shouldnt be. i only have one part in this. all the whys i ask myself. the uncertainties. its breathtaking sometimes. yet it seems so natural. just how did you come into the picture. it hasnt been easy to say the least. and it probably wont be for a good while. but since i get to pour it all out to Him, i really shouldnt worry so much. i believe. perhaps not in myself but in Him definitely. don't know where i will be led, but ive stopped wondering. imagining. trying to find a logical way out. but ive come to realise. there IS no logical way out. there is no planning, no preparing. no point thinking so much. there is only trust, and faith. because it is that great. because it is unpredictable.
And so i refuse to give in.
thats whats really on my mind.
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