His love.

Lord i am broken. I am lost. I know not what to think, say or feel. Lord where are You?
I need You.



I am here



Where? I know you're meant to be in me. with me. but i dont feel you. how come?



I am here



Why is it like this? I feel so. so empty. i long for it. yearn. i've felt it before, once. maybe twice. but i dont feel anything. not yet, not now. why? where is your place in this? i want it, Lord. i want it!



You are my child, and I love you



But listen! i really really want it! why is it not this way? why do i need it to make me feel like i'm me? i cant stop thinking about it, i reaally cant.



I love you



But its not so much what happens now or later, maybe i could do without it. maybe if you give me one chance at it to see if it is to be then i'll be happy. maybe?



I love you



why cant i see it the way that its meant to be. is it even meant to be. i cant bear it any longer



I love you



wha..? what was that? im so lost. broken.



I love you



...i don't know anymore. I...



I love you



....



I love you









I love You too.



Do you know how much Jesus loves you?

" so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love surpasses all knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." [Ephesians 3:17-19]

thank you!

Thank you everyone who made my transition from nineteen to non-teen such a memorable occasion! haha. To the guys, thanks for the lunch and bf2! cs for old times sake was gd. really havent done that in a long while. To the wonderful bunch who surprised me with the dinner and made it to the lil afterparty at my place, i still cant believed you guys brought me to ling nam! haha (even though the food has already been through the digestive cycle, ok..um, too much info, i still cant believe it! thanks guys! =) ) and for every special person who remembered my birthday (and even those who didnt!), thank you!! To my wonderful family, thank you and love you all loads. and finally. most of all. with all of my heart. Thank You.

for everything.

tears.

I used to be addicted
to sorrow

melancholic tunes and
stabs at the heart
conjured up only painful images
of what once was
and what was
to be
laced with wistful promises
of a surreal happiness
emptiness now made certain
I ran
battered by fear
i ran
consumed
i ran
lost.


i ran

The clouds in the sky
seemed only too dark
swallowed the sky
as the sky wept
i couldn't tell
rain
from tears
they were my own

so i thought

once. maybe twice.
never again
but this is not to be
for there is One far greater

and through Him
has flowed
joy

I dream again.

love.hope.truth


"For I am the Lord your God, who takes hold of your right hand,
and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." isaiah 41:13