Seems so strange. Now that im going back soon...it suddenly seems that...i don't want to leave? what's wrong with me? i should be ecstatic that i can go back home so soon! lol. hahaha...im crazy.

dunno..guess i just had lotsa fun with all the people here over the past few weeks that well, i'll kinda miss it? hahahaha.. everyone's been awesome to hang with..max and albert for initial d and sports...rae and ed for the evening out jes now.. russ for practically everything else..

mmm...dunno..

but it'll be cool to be back in sg though!!
hehehe

thanks for everything guys~

=)

Charles and Steven left yesterday...so did Germaine..Eugene left 2 days ago..woofy and shirrie today and Chris is leaving tomorrow..hmmm...which basically leaves me and russell to hang out at my place or his..woofy and russ stayed over last night, got beds to sleep in mah..hahaha...woofy was damn happy..so happy that he straight away bought (or rather..asked russ to buy- underage) 2 bottles of carlton cold..and some Baileys' too.. come to think of it..theres still a bottle of carlton cold in my fridge...wait..yea tt's right!! wahahaha...ho well..was so stoned after one bottle and the baileys' (which is just water to him actually, stoned over lack of sleep -_-" ) that he just dozed off on my beanbag..then sometime in the middle of the night moved to charles' bed..

Russ intro'ed me to some new online game thingy - Gunbound. Is the whole of sg playing it? REALLY? dang..
aniwae, spent the whole night and this morning playing tt with him..since now we got two online coms to use in my house..
after that had the regular stuff with russ at sgkopitiam..then went to QV for awhile..rained like mad today..and was soooo cold..like 9 degrees when the wind blew..and it did~ and i was wearing only one t shirt loh....dri-fit summore..haizzz

After all that went with max and albert (always around, no doubt =) ) for some initial D. Max really is mad about it. Can feel albert's starting to get hooked too..then played pool and did some damn late night grocery shopping at safeway QV before max dropped me off in his beloved ford.

I know this is a lame blog entry but i basically just summed up my day. lol.

man, it IS boring without the guys...

I'm starting to get that old feeling again. well, don't really know how to explain it. just that feeling. It comes and goes just as quick. Intense bursts....evanescent. Nostalgia perhaps? Even i can't comprehend it, let alone describe it. It makes me feel...well, more complete i guess. Makes me appreciate what i have. Allows me to really really have fun again. Somehow it seems i've forgotten how it is to savour every moment of the day, how to enjoy life like i used to..it's like..a kind of fondness..for how things are? like..how your life is? Its strange really..but when you're really happy with everything around you and how things are..somehow..mmm....i guess its really memorable. Gives you a sense of satisfaction. I always feel that when i'm back in Singapore. Like even when i'm doing nothing. Nothing at all, i'm still happy. At least, happier than here some time back..when i just felt empty. Its really a sense of identity perhaps..a sense of home. A place where you've grown to know and love...a place filled with joy and wonderful times..and wonderful people. Its where i feel comfortable, not just with everything else, but with myself. A sense of identity and completeness.

On the flipside, it ain't all bad down here in melbourne too. Well, it was, for a while. But that time is gone and what counts is NOW. Thats why, like i said in the start, i'm begining to get that feeling again! =) hahaha..i'm really bonding with all the dudes..getting more comfortable with everything. Chilling out..having fun! Suddenly, when you look at things from another perspective, you realise just how much you've been missing out. There are certain things that i've overlooked in the past. Things of which i have come to realise and rectify..and perhaps my efforts have somewhat paid off, because i have seen a change in a lot of things since then. However, i do recognise that i've grown. (well, not physically.. =P) and i'm not the same person i was before. It is time to look at life differently now. There are new responsibilities and roles to assume. It was fun being a kid. It has been excellent growing up, and continuing to grow as we face new challenges and difficulties that lie upon us. I pray that He will look out for us and guide us along our paths through this journey of life.

And yet, in the end, i am still the same person no matter where i am or how things are. There is no point and no way that i can be someone else or try to be for that matter. No matter what happens, I will still be me. wahahahaha~

man, i can't wait for the exams to end...
fun awaits~ heheh

=)

"....chen mo zhi cheng yao guo mo shen....
....jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun....
....ni de sheng ying....si qu ping hen....
....man man xia chen....

...xiang hui dao guo qu...."

There is never a day, that time passes away..
so slowly, yet as it may..
seem to be so real
in that certain obscure moment..
that you never seem to catch
in this world dark and gray
time is right behind you
in its wonderful wisperly way
sudden it may seem
ingenious, i must say..
but when can we see tomorrow
if only time began today...

-{bbQ}- | lol is not more..

perhaps - ! [ 4 ] - lol?
who knows....
anyway, USA | lol rocked!! hehehehe...BET NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT EH? well..only woofy and russ know..maybe steven..haha..'neway, had a greeeaaat weekend with the guys after the horror of the model...finally a weekend i really enjoyed! tremendously...

gd luck to everyone for the exams!

oh well monday tomorrow! time to get to work again..