its been a long week. heck yea...went back to m'sia for the better part of the week (and for christmas most importantly) and had a good time there. stayed at my grandma's house - the house i grew up in. felt weird at first..i was like...visiting another life? like..a life that had been lost somehow in the whirlwind of growing up and all. its strange really, but i throughly enjoyed it, no doubt. but what really did it for me was all the people around..my aunts, uncles, grandma (of course) and now..all the little ones! hahahaha...darn cute little 'uns..having a new cousin every couple 'a years..got to see the latest addition, justin, who's just a couple months old. Man. i feel old now..so i'm 18 years older than the little fella who is my cousin. hmmm..not that strange actually cos' my cousin on the other end is almost 40. lol. but anyways, i had a good time with all the other cousins too...huiying, growin' up quick..marcusssss - pick up ballin' boy! (my mini-me!) and all the rest...didnt get to see chelle-b, melissa..cal and shaun though. no worries, will prob see 'em on chi new year...on the whole, was a wonderful trip back to revisit my roots...heheh~

and since comin' back...more ballin'. pw says i always write the same th8ing over and over. but its true! thats all i do EVERYDAY! HOWWWWWWWWWWW

hahaha..had a great time at jj's housewarming today.

but i still owe pw 4 meals.

erk.

had a full court game tonight. was good. i ran point. nailed the first two threes right of the bat and had a few assists. was a nice game...but a bit relaxed...not uptempo at all. heck everyone was WALKING back on D. hahahaha...but it was fun!

=)

went to cineleisure again today for davin to see his beloved J down there at the cinema. hahaha..heck, he's talking with her right now lor! wth...hahaha..crazy~

its been a nice day.

rusty's back in sg. how cool. we gonna watch LOTR tmr with the rest of the guys. sounds good eh?

didn't really do much today either..but had a wonderful day~ woke up to suns/blazers game of which i watched 3/4's before having lunch wit davin..lunch was good. only plain chicken rice but boy do i miss hawker food. hehe~ suns lost in the end also..no amare, too much zach randolph. went for 30 and 20. sick shit. after that we played some gb and nba2k4 to let the food settle then went for some serious ballin' for the next few hours...shot till' my hands were all red and by finger was bleeding. but had a streak of abt 20 free throws. shooting was abit streaky today. finger hurt too much after awhile to shoot properly.

had dinner with moms and all, gd stuff. then went to acs independant for a play at the theater. it was sooo awesome! excellent acting all round and the story was good too, about a kid with a hard childhood who grew up to be a gangster and murderer, and was sentenced to life in prison..then abt how he accepted christ while in prison because he had screwed up his life and he couldn't be with his mother as she died from liver cancer screaming his name before she passed away, wanting to see him for the last time(his moms was the only one who didnt give up on him thru out the years) ..and it was a true story! the real guy (now a pastor) actually went on stage after the show to share with us a wonderful message..was really really good stuff..damn touching man..haha..really made me think about lotsa stuff..

had a good supper with jeanette, kok leong and davin after that at 848...ordered damn alot and stuffed our faces.

kinda sleepy now...more ballin' tmr...got a 3 on 3 tourney i think..hehez

balled today again.
was awesome.

heheh

ballin' again tmr

woohoooooooooooooooooooooo

finally. it was a clear day and a blue sky today. was awesome weather to ball. heheh. so i did.

feel kinda tired now. got up at 10+ and was bugged by my dad to go to cavanagh to check out something with the walls. somehow sorta dont feel like moving in there no more. even though its nice and big and all...well furnished...and in orchard.. so what? i like YISHUN! wahahaha...mm..dunno...but seem to prefer my yishun place at the moment. sigh.

neway had lunch at northpoint food court. was okok lar. but i shoulda eaten char kuey teow. haven't eaten that yet since coming back. haha. din eat that much though cos' was ballin' later! hahaha..so i did..in the afternoon. played with my dad and sis first then with davin and some of the guys there. was good. hahaha..then after that went swimming. kinda nuts after playing 4-5hrs of basketball but i did it anyway~ fancied a nice swim since i hadn't used the pool since...since i dunno when..but the water was bitterly cold. froze my ass off lor. if that wasnt enough i still went for golf after dinner, accompanied my dad to the driving range and torched the woods and irons for almost 3hrs. completely ripped my hands after that from swinging too hard. hahaha..but was good too. can outhit my dad! haha...damn lucky man..

yea..tired..gonna do something similar tmr though..haha..

but it was reallie fun today..
=)

today started wit me waking up in my own room for the first time in a loooooong time. was great to have the sunshine peeking through my curtains to wake me again in my room. ever since i left for melb my room has since been converted into a study, and ive been sleeping practically everywhere else (sofa etc etc) since coming back...but this time was different. cos my dad is back too. hahaha..so now i got to pull a mattress onto my room (now a study) floor and sleep there. its not quite the same, but its great to have that feeling again. the feeling of MY room. the room that i grew up in. so many memories still linger, of all the fun and feelings that i'd been through in this very room. nice. i remember crawling under the table once while chatting on the phone. i can still see myself mugging like mad for the exams with only the table lamp on, and my stereo (now gone) blasting some sun yan zi cd. mmm...i 'member playing games on the com with davin, but mostly i rem myself stealing the phone and hiding it in my room, (only one cordless in the house) then..err...secretly use it till the wee hours of the morning. then also waking up for school when it's still dark out, and not wanting to get up most of the time until my sister or my mother comes in and pulls the covers off 'a me. hahaha...ooo..and i miss my chair. wonder where it is now. prob kenah kapoh by my sis to be used as a clothes horse. haha. it'll be strange when we move, but still, in the meantime, i just want to enjoy having my room back again..

ooo...and now i have a new driver in the house. wahahaha~ FREE TAXI~~~~ =P

i played ball today! woohooo~

had to wait like the whole day to play loh since it was raining all through the day. finally played at night wit davin..jes' went down to shoot abit, worked some on my handle. its cool hanging out like that wit him jes' like old times. esp the talk cock session after the ballin'...mmm...trying to perfect my crossover though. did some slight changes and added a couple' a fakes here and there..but its okay now. can get by most people~ =P (i hope)

i cant believe the lakers lost today. all steve jabbey's fault lor. (boy, was he an angry little man)

didn't reallie do anything else today..mostly spent time at home with my mom.

ah the joy of having nothing to do.

im joking. the boredom is killing me.

I have DECIDED.

i'ma take up ballin' again. yepp. u got me right. BALLIN'.

after watching lebron and ricky "circa 1970 supa 'fro ala dr.J-Julius Erving" davis tonight, i just can't stop emulating their dynamism on the court together. not to mention darius miles and the main man tonight with the career high in points, Carlos Boozer. (yepp what a name~)

No wonder the ben wallace and co. got whooped.

no matter, still doesn't sway me from gettin' back in the groove, dancin' and emulating moves in my living room.

Unfortunately, does cause my sister to shout at me to sit down and stop blocking the tv.

ah. the end of yet another day wasted at home. i can't believe how i spent today. wot a pig man, seriously. firstly, i woke up at 3. yes, that's right. THREE. that means automatically skipping breakfast and lunch. heheh. and wot did i do after waking up? err. bum around the house. play NBA live 2k4. errr. hey. i cant rem...err..eat dinner. errr. watch nba. errr..tt's about it actually. cant believe it. THAT'S ALL. gosh i wish i did something more productive today. wanted to play some bball but it rained all day too. shall..nono...MUST play tomorrow.

The funny thing is..im getting thinner.

what?

people are damn complicated eh?

i cant stand it. i really cant. why? why do people do such things? why are people so...so insensitive? so oblivious to those around them that they just cant seem to realise how foolish they are. and immature. I myself am in no position to be judgmental, but some things are just damn OBVIOUS alright? really i question your actions.

on the flipside. i realise kids really do brighten up my day. wahaha...they are so innocent. so darn cute. there was this little girl on the train who had absolutely the cutest smile ever. there i was on the train, seething at what had happened earlier,when she comes up to me and pulls at my jeans...barely past my knees..she looks up at me with her lovely doe-eyes and gives me this angelic smile~

dang


if i ever have a daughter when im old and all i'ma love her to bits..heheh

Seems so strange. Now that im going back soon...it suddenly seems that...i don't want to leave? what's wrong with me? i should be ecstatic that i can go back home so soon! lol. hahaha...im crazy.

dunno..guess i just had lotsa fun with all the people here over the past few weeks that well, i'll kinda miss it? hahahaha.. everyone's been awesome to hang with..max and albert for initial d and sports...rae and ed for the evening out jes now.. russ for practically everything else..

mmm...dunno..

but it'll be cool to be back in sg though!!
hehehe

thanks for everything guys~

=)

Charles and Steven left yesterday...so did Germaine..Eugene left 2 days ago..woofy and shirrie today and Chris is leaving tomorrow..hmmm...which basically leaves me and russell to hang out at my place or his..woofy and russ stayed over last night, got beds to sleep in mah..hahaha...woofy was damn happy..so happy that he straight away bought (or rather..asked russ to buy- underage) 2 bottles of carlton cold..and some Baileys' too.. come to think of it..theres still a bottle of carlton cold in my fridge...wait..yea tt's right!! wahahaha...ho well..was so stoned after one bottle and the baileys' (which is just water to him actually, stoned over lack of sleep -_-" ) that he just dozed off on my beanbag..then sometime in the middle of the night moved to charles' bed..

Russ intro'ed me to some new online game thingy - Gunbound. Is the whole of sg playing it? REALLY? dang..
aniwae, spent the whole night and this morning playing tt with him..since now we got two online coms to use in my house..
after that had the regular stuff with russ at sgkopitiam..then went to QV for awhile..rained like mad today..and was soooo cold..like 9 degrees when the wind blew..and it did~ and i was wearing only one t shirt loh....dri-fit summore..haizzz

After all that went with max and albert (always around, no doubt =) ) for some initial D. Max really is mad about it. Can feel albert's starting to get hooked too..then played pool and did some damn late night grocery shopping at safeway QV before max dropped me off in his beloved ford.

I know this is a lame blog entry but i basically just summed up my day. lol.

man, it IS boring without the guys...

I'm starting to get that old feeling again. well, don't really know how to explain it. just that feeling. It comes and goes just as quick. Intense bursts....evanescent. Nostalgia perhaps? Even i can't comprehend it, let alone describe it. It makes me feel...well, more complete i guess. Makes me appreciate what i have. Allows me to really really have fun again. Somehow it seems i've forgotten how it is to savour every moment of the day, how to enjoy life like i used to..it's like..a kind of fondness..for how things are? like..how your life is? Its strange really..but when you're really happy with everything around you and how things are..somehow..mmm....i guess its really memorable. Gives you a sense of satisfaction. I always feel that when i'm back in Singapore. Like even when i'm doing nothing. Nothing at all, i'm still happy. At least, happier than here some time back..when i just felt empty. Its really a sense of identity perhaps..a sense of home. A place where you've grown to know and love...a place filled with joy and wonderful times..and wonderful people. Its where i feel comfortable, not just with everything else, but with myself. A sense of identity and completeness.

On the flipside, it ain't all bad down here in melbourne too. Well, it was, for a while. But that time is gone and what counts is NOW. Thats why, like i said in the start, i'm begining to get that feeling again! =) hahaha..i'm really bonding with all the dudes..getting more comfortable with everything. Chilling out..having fun! Suddenly, when you look at things from another perspective, you realise just how much you've been missing out. There are certain things that i've overlooked in the past. Things of which i have come to realise and rectify..and perhaps my efforts have somewhat paid off, because i have seen a change in a lot of things since then. However, i do recognise that i've grown. (well, not physically.. =P) and i'm not the same person i was before. It is time to look at life differently now. There are new responsibilities and roles to assume. It was fun being a kid. It has been excellent growing up, and continuing to grow as we face new challenges and difficulties that lie upon us. I pray that He will look out for us and guide us along our paths through this journey of life.

And yet, in the end, i am still the same person no matter where i am or how things are. There is no point and no way that i can be someone else or try to be for that matter. No matter what happens, I will still be me. wahahahaha~

man, i can't wait for the exams to end...
fun awaits~ heheh

=)

"....chen mo zhi cheng yao guo mo shen....
....jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun....
....ni de sheng ying....si qu ping hen....
....man man xia chen....

...xiang hui dao guo qu...."

There is never a day, that time passes away..
so slowly, yet as it may..
seem to be so real
in that certain obscure moment..
that you never seem to catch
in this world dark and gray
time is right behind you
in its wonderful wisperly way
sudden it may seem
ingenious, i must say..
but when can we see tomorrow
if only time began today...

-{bbQ}- | lol is not more..

perhaps - ! [ 4 ] - lol?
who knows....
anyway, USA | lol rocked!! hehehehe...BET NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT EH? well..only woofy and russ know..maybe steven..haha..'neway, had a greeeaaat weekend with the guys after the horror of the model...finally a weekend i really enjoyed! tremendously...

gd luck to everyone for the exams!

oh well monday tomorrow! time to get to work again..

HooOooraAAaay!!

the dratted model and presentation...OVER! gdgdgd...and it went surprisingly well too! =) well..at least..considering the situation we were in like an hour before the time of submission...like seriously dire straits manz...half our stumps and stump pads were destroyed..there were no ant caps on our piers, i hadn't read up on the talk AND we didn't redraw the section!!

!!

but incredibly, we pulled it off in front of the ever-so-calm-reminds-me-of-old-folks-home panel! So intimidating k..like all pro-builders and ex-architects interviewing us..but keith was awesome. i tell ya, he's one of the nicest 60-70+ yr old men i've ever had as a tutor. (er...actually the only one..don't get too many like them..)

Jess msged me after my presentation..told me we still had yet to appease our inner (evil) selves and exorcise the constrution demons from that mess of glue and balsa. Combustion would be a fine ritual. Esp after dousing it with some vodka. might have a faculty bonfire party maybe. wahahahhaha..see how it goess...

till then'...im STILL LACKING SLEEP
hahahaha

but i can sleep in...finally...
=)

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Here i am in the school computer lab. It is 7am in the morning. *yawn* No, i didn't have to come early to school to meet anyone or anything. It's but yet another day in the life of a student in the architecture faculty i guess. I'm pretty chuffed. And i have good reason to be, considering I have been here working since 3pm the day before. Believe me, i have completely reversed my night and day, considerably pitiful i must say, seeing that i fail miserably in even having meals at regular times. This is my 11pm. NOW. I'm gonna bed soon..the moment i get home. Then i'll wake up again at 2-3pm and here we go all over again. Just once more. No. twice. 3 maybe. Past Monday this nightmare will all be over. The model finished by then (x fingers crossed x). Jess thoughtfully suggested that all that balsa wood in our model would make for an attractive bonfire. Couldn't agree more.

Brain's not working right now. Going out of my miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnndddddddd.....

hmmm..hungry..damn..

Seriously. I know it may seem as if i'm abandoning my blog. But i'm not.

I just haven't had the timeeeee to do anything to it. Well, and when i do i usually am not in any position to update it. LOL. Hahahaha...esp with the upcoming project due dates and the exams creeping up and around that really small corner, time's just so valuable. Jes' have to weigh out what i can do with whatever spare time i guess.

Haven't been well lately. Damn flu around again. :/

Had an awful dream last night, very bizarre. Can't really remember clearly what it was about..but i do remember jolting up suddenly, sweating. Was so tired last night so i turned in early, but tossed and turned till' like 3+ or so...then woke at 6+ cos' of the stupid dream. Fortunately, i managed to WILL myself back to sleep. Much to my satisfaction. :)

Woke up again at about noon..and had lunch with steven at this new place 'Shanghai Village' of something like that. Think it's better known as 'the new place that took over Nudo' Anyway, with food like thaaaaat, errr..i'm not too sure if i'm ever going back again. ever. wahahahahahahaha...so eviiil

Then went to the studio work on the model again. Blair came round again. Had some snide remarks again. Joked around again. Criticised our model again. Said it wasn't good again. Told us to redo some bits again. Which made us kinda furious again. So back to work. again.

weeeeeeelllll

here's the loooong overdue entry to my mediocre blog...which i have neglected for what has been almost 2 whole weeks..
i dunno...you know how sometimes you're just so 'ONz' about something and you so into it that well, you get addicted? Then it seems nice and all while you're at it and enjoying yourself...but after awhile..something might happen..and you're drawn to something else? hehehehe...then the interest somehow fades...well...that about sums up why i haven't been blogging regularly.

And then there's the work....the model. The damn model. I really don't understand why we have to do this model...(hmm...act..i do...but STIIIIIILLLL) It's sooooo boring! i bet jess would agree to that too. (jess, btw, is my partner on the model) She absolutely hates it...esp cos' she has LOTS more work than me..so i guess she has even more right to complain about the model..

Teacher's go on strike tomorrow all over melbourne...so no school tmr for all sch kids! (uni students included)
...THAT'S GOOD NEWS ISN'T IT? REJOICEEEEEEEEE....


no wait..i still have that field trip scheduled for tomorrow. Damn.

=(

been awhile since i last blogged...too much stuff to do...too much on my mind..like the stupid model!!! *sigh* and the talk! and the essay!

haven't slept in 36 hrs

ahahahaha...

wat a week this is gonna be~

It's just not healthy to think so much. Just thinking. About stuff. About other people.

Watched Bad Boys II yesterday. Pretty good. What S.W.A.T. should've been like...save for all the swearing!

Should check out www.friendster.com yeah?
Didn't know Nik was in there already~! lol...'Neways, huge database of people...quite surprising really~
Join up guys! :)


i'm kinda hungry.

Cold...need water too....hehe

Haven't done much during these past few days...we had planned to do something..well..exciting during the holidays...looks like nothing's gonna happen..heheh~ Already about 1 and half weeks liao..left with half week only...shld be spent on my work!

I really like Sun Yan Zi's songs...been listening alot lately...and Jay Chou's too...these two are staples on my playlists! :)

We found this place where you can play lan for about 3 bucks the whole night....as in like 6-12....6 whole hours! and now we finally know why most magazines rate Battlefield:1942 the best game of all time...really totally kicks ass this game...though we play the expansion only..hahaha...

We placed (yet another) bet down with vincent...this time to stop his swearing...(yes, he does alot) Every time he says anything more crude than a mere 'shit' and any one of us hears it...he owes each one of us (there are 6~) 50cents! wahahaha~ He agreed to it himself! lol...so to stop himself from losing any cash, he's completely shut himself up! hahahaha...really funny when he really wants to say something bad but he....just...can't.....ahahahaha....like so gek lidat see his face....like when Chris does something dumb...it's so automatic for him to go: "Chris you Moo....r...n....Wat the Fu......em...ehem ahem"

:)

heheh...din' blog for a couple days liao...too busy enjoyin' the hols~! :)
anyway, din' really do much today...played good cs..heheh~ 41-10, good enough for top frag..then we went to melbourne uni track to run...was cold and windy! almost got blown away~ hahaha.....not really, but it was hard to run when the wind was blowing full force against me. But anyway, still managed to go 10 rounds...about 4 kms...russ did good too! but woofy was abit late so he din' run as much...

We're gonna chadstone tomorrow! It'll be fun i expect, esp cos not one of us knows how to get there! think we'll get lost like when we first came to melbourne... :P

sigh. can't sleep again. What's happening? It's the holidays for goodness sake! I'm supposed to be carefree! not a worry in the world! lol. hmmm...maybe not....i have some stuff to hand in tmr and supposed to be doing my assignment too...meeting max and steve in the morning...man~

Maybe that's why i can't get to sleep...or fall asleep for that matter.

Just read my round of blogs...my condolences to ming's fren's fam...coincides with a paragraph on bong's blog, like she knew about it and is writing her feelings on 'doing silly things'. I personally think that well, it IS foolish. But then on the other hand, in that point in time, he was probably blinded and consumed by jealousy and hurt and what have you to think logically. Maybe he just couldn't get over it. Couldn't accept it. That's why he took his life.

I believe that, to some extent, you should never trust and be consumed by the love for someone completely. Cos' what should happen if that someone is gone? You'll just crumble away and die. Except for one instance. Perhaps the only one we can trust and give our hearts to completely is our Lord Christ Jesus, for it is He and only He who will never break our trust...and will never leave you...always. Yeah i do feel sorry for those innocent girls/guys whose only fault was loving someone too deeply and trusting someone too much. The 'heart-broken' as my mom likes to say. haha.I feel like...well..for those who are heartbroken...you can never be able be the person you truely have the potential to be unless you get over it. There is so much out there in life to accomplish...the joy you can bring to people...the differences you can make in other people's lives. Never mind if you don't get the appreciation that you deserve. It's a different kind of joy. a kind of satisfaction. One that, well, won't be short lived. It's not intense...more mellow..calm...like a smile, not laughter. Would you rather one person remember you when you are gone and beat themselves up over your passing, or many many others remembering you for what you did in their lives, for making a difference. For bringing them joy when they are down, for changing their lives for the better.

Through which would life be more meaningful?


"...and there's a danger in loving somebody too much...
...and it's sad when you know, it's your heart they can't touch...
...there's a reason why people don't stay who they are...

...cos' baby sometimes love just ain't enough..."

Rusty's house is so nice! haha...am blogging in someone else's house for the first time...haven't been over to russ's place since....his cable tv got cancelled. lol. Oh well then, no more espn, no more NBA. Sigh.
got to play CS 1.6 though, since rusty is a CS pro, (i mean like..FOR REAL), we totally owned the comp online..lol...still no one knows why...heheh~

Terence was talking about warcraft 3 strategies last night at the tram stop. Funny fellah. Whole day talk cock, sing song, play warcraft. Can't seem to be still when talking about warcraft. He just has to act out the animation of the particular unit/monster in the game that he's talking about and make the sound as well~ lol.

Goes something like this...

"Aye you guys knoe ah, got this strat ah, i play online at home against insane computer all day all night (and rot my life away), damn good ah! In the beginning ah, jump (he means tech, dunno why he says 'jump') straight away and build tauren! (wow, what an ingenius idea! like no one's thought of that before) also ah, buy one airship and wisp, "wheeaaeewwwww" (tries desperately to mimic the sound of an airship, uses dumb hand signals) and clear some trees with a ballista/destroyer! "Boom, Bom!! Chiu Chiu!!" (u get what u mean) and then ah, the BEST trick! I always use one ah! put the wisp in the hole and build an Ancient Protector!! "whoop! whop! Bam!"(throwing sound, does lame catapult motion with his hands flinging above his head) "wah lau si bei shiok ah!" (self-congratualtion over his newfound ingenuity, both in his strat, and being an absolute retard)

But terence's CS rocks hard! hahaha~ he's one funny guy! laughing the whole way to rusty's place cos' of him! :)
'Neway, got lotsa stuff to do over this short holiday, better get down to doing it...

It's 6am in the morning now.

Why am i not sleeping? I don't know why. Umm...i can't sleep? Valid enough reason?
Feel like talking to someone. Chatting for awhile. I know could always do that 24/7 with Davin in Singapore. But down here? Anyway, great that you can drive now man! haha...even though i know you probably don't check out my blog often...(ot at all...for that matter~) 'Neway, cell on friday was great! We visited this place near Victoria Market...and met with OCF Kew and OCF parkville. There was an awesome sermon by Auntie Marilyn...really inspirational words...and great prayer and worship too. Tim Goh and Desmund Ang sang that night! And Jus on the drums! And guess what..they've released their cd! so cool~ I got a copy right away! Great Jus~! All your hard work paid off! haha...happy for you bro! :)

You can check out some info about the cd at
justimdes.com and their debut album "STILL"

Man it's getting bright outside....I should return to bed now...and try to sleep~
God bless ya'all! :)

I just came to know of this cool alumni website for everyone who's ever studied in Singapore. Pretty big database. Has every school in sg. You could find someone you would like to get in contact with....but anyway, sign up! heheh~

yahoo.schoolfriends.com.sg

You never know who you're gonna find. lol. but u wouldn't know if you didn't sign up! :)
Thanx to xing juan for telling me about this~!

This week has been just tiring. And it's not even over yet. lol.

Work, work, work...

It's been kinda strange lately. Finally got back my motivation to do work thanks to albert. heheh....i'm thankful man~ but the sarcasm was a bit over the top ya? "just close your eyes, face the wall, and start running"
hahaha~

Oh well, anyway woofy's finally gone home. lolz. Now the house seems kinda empty. Strange.

The guys wanna do something over the hols...like go to sydney or gc for a few days. But with my history essay due the first day when school reopens? hmmm....we shall have to see. Hopefully i can finish lotsa work in the first week. And there's that stupid model to worry about. Damn.

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Cleaning out my room really reminds me how much filth i've acquired over the past few weeks. The guys have been over often lately..and i haven't found much time myself too. But like when we watch a dvd in my room and everyone sits around with chips and drinks and stuff like that, it's always so convenient for them to leave the garbage in my room after the movie. Kinda irritating. Especially super alcoholic woofy. Most of the rubbish is from him. (both physical rubbish and verbal) I'll make him clean out all the garbage next time. lol. The holidays start next week, which means this is the last week before freedom, albeit only temporary freedom. But still.

Watched Pirates of the Caribbean and League of Extraordinary Gentlemen over the weekend. No, i didn't splurge on movie tickets. Russell downloaded them and burnt them to vcds! Woohoo~ Anyway...they were pretty okay. League's ending was a bit retarded. I personally preferred Pirates. Haha...has abit more depth and flavour than League which has a kinda weak plot. And i do dig swashbuckling, cut-throat action with a dash of intelligent humour. Johnny Depp was excellent as Captain Jack Sparrow. Man, I'm really craving for adventure now. Really need some to spice up this mundane routine of uni life. That's kinda why i really liked HPT (probably disbanded by now) cos' of the adventure camps. Yes, i know that sounds abit lame but hey, that was the closest thing you could get to adventure at that time growing up in Singapore.

There's a flu virus going round' here but its not SARS. Everyone's got it. I've got it again too. lol.

Crown's really nice on saturday nights. Plenty of OML* girls as according Steven. (*OML= Out of My League) hahaha...really funny cos' we dared Chris to go jio some girl who was sitting next to our table at China Bar. But he was scared cos' the guy next to her looked like her boyfriend....hahaha....come to think of it. Probably so. Not many singles at Crown, seemingly all couples...cept' like bachelor groups like us! hahaha....none of us have girlfriends...and only one (me) has ever had one...ahahahaha....but it's fun 'cos we get to look around (at girls) without any strings attached. And we can bum around all day like every guy does and not care one bit about anything. No fuss, no reputations to hold ourselves to. Just pure, plain fun. heheh~ :)

Anyway, i pick Lebron James to be the next big thing in basketball. Not like he isn't already, and the Lakers are going to win the championship this season, but he is going to be rookie of the year. Unless some debilatating injury stops him mid-season. I'm still gonna support Kobe but until everything about his sexual assualt case has been cleared up and the dust has settled....i'm going with King James. Look out.

Hmmmm....it's been kinda boring these past few days. Had a good night out at lindsey's place last night for home cell. Haven't been to cell past 2 weeks cos' of some reason that i can't seem to remember right now. 'Neway home cell was fantastic. Great cooking from eddie and lindsey. Sorry for the lousy tearing of the prayer point sheets lindsey~ heheh... i had dinner elsewhere like barely 30min before eating with them again. No wonder they found me a wee bit conspicuous when i didnt touch the dessert. Not that i wanted it anyway. haha...trying to lose weight here. but it was great sze ying...so its not cos' i didnt like it yeah? Well..i'm off to play games now...take care everyone~

ciao~! :)

Super sianz man. Wanna go have some fun. Wanna play ball. Can't go on like this....sure die!

And then retarded interper woofy aka vincent aka frickin' cheater keep skipping class and writing stupid msgs on my tagboard. Pissing me off. lol. But i can't be bothered actually. got better things to do.

I need to get back into ballin'. FAST.

I've finally rectified the scrolling down tha page error on my blog..hehe..so now everyone can scroll all the way down! :)
(i couldn't scroll past where the sidebar ended before the changes)

I had a strange dream last night. And the nights before that as well. They've been weird...but somewhat...somehow....real? Like i'm in a world that is a reflection of my true inner self. what i really feel towards things...and..some people. Thats why my dreams are so...nice. There is no way in the world i can explain this feeling i have about my dreams, let alone comprehend it sometimes. Somehow...it feels kinda like...home? Like a warm cosy feeling of security and happiness. And a certain feeling towards some people in my life. Or maybe a certain person. It's weird really. But only through dreaming can we dwelve into our subconscious mind to unlock and explore certain feelings that we have never felt before towards certain things. It's where we don't hold back. Where we can experience emotion in it's entirety. Somehow when i experience something in my dreams it's like the feeling is multiplied tenfold? Like when its a scary dream (or nightmare..yeah) then we somehow get really really scared but if it were real we wouldn't be that scared? Or like dreams where you get disappointed..and happy...it just seems more intense? So ever had a dream where you were in love? Just imagine. Cos' sometimes it's the only way and time in the world when you can be together. and happy.

hahaha...apart from all that, i hafta get back in shape!!! yeah, i am sorta on the way...but still.
Also, shout out to ming aka KO for reppin' me on his site. (sort of...bit more like advertising) haha..cant wait to meet up with ya back in sg brudda~ Nice scorpion too! and for rae, i sorta lost ur number again..whoops...haha...but we should have dinner or something with the rest of the guys sometime soon...like this weekend would be nice! :)

I wanna go rock climbing this weekend!

Maaaaan~ I feel like going back to Singapore now.
Dunno why but i just do. Maybe it's cos' i wanna see all the great frens back there...maybe it's cos i wanna see how my house has changed since i was last there. Maybe its cos i wanna play basketball just downstairs again. Sigh.

It's nice to think about happy times. I must admit, the whole of secondary school was a blast. But so was primary school...and CJC first 3 months.. come to think of it...my whole childhood was pretty amazing. It's nice here. Sort of. But i'm not the kind of person who digs stuff like nice weather and materialistic possessions. Being with great people is what does it for me...and plenty of friends back in Singapore as well as being with my family is what i like best. I do have some really great friends here though..and i sincerely enjoy their company, but..i dunno...hmmm...growing up does seem to suck. a bit. Especially when there's not much left in my scholastic life. hahahaha...oh well! Time to grow up..time to take responsibilities! Its nice to have challenges too..sort of pushes you on. Makes you into a better person. Moulds you. I won't back down from challenges. I will take responsibilities. I will go where God leads me to.



"....deng dao fang qi de na tian...ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian~~~~"

I got my L license already..haha...now for the next one...dunno why all my photos look so shit



anyway, got my computer fixed up...so can finally play games again!
hahaha...actually i dun really like to play games liao...siAnz~

You can never get the one you love.

Is that it? Is that what it all leads to? If only, if only true love really existed. The world would then seem...so...perfect. Even with all the bad stuff going on around you...even when shit does happen..it wouldn't matter right? Because there is love. Can two people who love each other really be together always? Why not? Why is it that whether or not two people are together depends more on what they think of the outcome, instead of whether or not they love each other? I wish love was more controllable. More easy to understand. I think our world we live in, the society, the system, just destoys everything. It breeds money-loving bastards, selfish arrogant twats that truely believe cash does make the world go round. People who don't give a shit about the next guy, who would kick you when you're down if there was money to be made. But then again, what does it all prove? People are selfish. they want what's best for themselves. After all, who doesn't? We are not perfect, we were born sinners. But what can we do? How can we change? How about....love? Think about it. Love is about selfless giving, about not asking for anything in return, for doing whatever it takes for someone else. Not yourself. He gave us the gift of love, the gift of hope. Would you risk your life for someone else's? For money? Probably not. But how about if it was for the one you love, the one whom you want the best for. Would you do it? If you really truely do love a person, all you want is for the person to be happy. In reality it may be harsh, but with dreams, with faith and hope, it may be the best for both parties. All that matters is that you cherish the times, the memories and the happiness that will live in your heart forever. So what if people look down on you. So what if you lose everything in the end. Just knowing that you have once loved, in your heart that magical feeling will never die. And that, with the wonderful memories of the one you love lingering in your mind, will remain forever. So when you feel down...and not loved just because you can't get the person you want...sometimes, it's better that way...and know, it's about sacrifice. After all, its not about ourselves...but what's best for the one you love...So, in the end...is it really justifiable to give up everything for the one who resides in your heart? To love selflessly with nothing in return? To follow our dreams and sacrifice our happiness for someone else's? In the name of love?

Yes.

vrooooooom~~~~
hahaha...i've got a learner's driving license now! yeah~! Now all i'm missing is a car...hahaha :)
The test was so easy...but according to Rusty i just got lucky. Apparently we answered 34 multiple choice questions plucked randomly from a database of questions so that we don't get the same ones. Well he got fact questions like: "what are the reflectors on the yellow lines beside the tram tracks for?" - You either know it or you don't. But for me, I must've gotten the dumbest questions from the whole damn database. I'm serious! Example: "What do you do when a police officer signals for you to stop?" A)Stop B)Ignore him C)Drive faster(!)

C) Drive faster

Pretty obvious right? :P

Hahahahaha....anyway, it's Charles' birthday today! We got him the most expensive mousepad known to man. hahaha...it's the 'steelmat' and yes, it is purely made of metal! Wanna know the price? $80. And we engraved 'Charles Hendarto Clan | TOAB' on it too~ which cost an additional $17.99 to do. Oh well. Girls/parents will never understand why anyone would need such a ridiculously (over)priced mousepad. Well, for (pro) gaming of course!!

A very happy birthday to Charles Hendarto! (a great housemate! :) )
*...i know he wun read this or else i wudn't have put the prices...thank goodness u never bothered to get my url...hehehe...*

Today was rubbish. No, i'm serious. it was.
hahaha...don't know what is it with my alarm! think it's spoilt or something...didn't hear it ring again this morning. sigh. So? Missed my first lecture. Then when i finally did wake up and was cheong-ing to school, i remembered that i forgot to bring like all my drafting equipment. Luckily like half the class didn't bring also. Haha..the tutor so gek sia. As old as he is, (like 70+ or so) i can see he was trying hard not to jump out the window. Then he finally ren bu zhu go call the subject coordinator who is the known to the faculty as the worst insanity-inducing, dick-headed bastard in the world. Then with no one better to pick, he goes round to my desk when i'm at my other friend's desk asking questions. Then, being the shithead that he is, he swings my chair round and says: "So, is she going out with you?"

What the.

"You were asking him about girls, weren't you? Well, so what's her answer?"

Friend stares blankly at him.

Me: "I wasn't talking about girls you stupid twat. I was talking about the assignment. So don't try hard to be so lame and go kiss someone else's ass, dickhead."

"Okay, boss. Sorry for being such an ass. I shall go kiss someone's ass now and rot in the corner."

Now i never really said that but well, that's was what was going on in my head when Mr. Smart Alec came round. I don't understand why he such a lamer, but he is. I guess its natural. He is just so rude. No wonder he doesn't have a girlfriend. And he's like coming to 45 i think. Well, maybe it can be atrributed to a combination of his overgrown hair and beer gut. I have NEVER seen a beer gut quite like his. He must have been drinking since he was 9.

Well, apart from that, I have to study for my driving theory test tomorrow. Have to do it in one night, but should be okay i guess...

*haiZ*

"...hai yao duo jiu...wo cai neng zhai ni shen bian~~~~"

Jay Chou's new album rocks~!
yeah i know it's abit late to only start listenin' to it now...but it took quite awhile for it to get to australia...and it's sellin' for friggin' 50 bucks. Serious~ Anyway, the birthday stuff is (sort of) officially over...haha...had a major major dinner with the main men at some snazzy restaurant by the yarra river, aptly named WATERFRONT. The food was WOW k...hahaha...never eaten such awesome seafood before in my life. So many people came! Glen, Ardi, Andreas, Alex, Benny...hadn't seen them since TOAB...hahaha...then after the dinner (which was actually sort of a double celebration with Charles' B'dae as well on the 28th) we went to SKY HIGH for entertainment of the bullet-bitin', guts-spilling kind. hahaha...no its not some violent cult place, it's a lan shop! :) Got to chill in Benny's new ride...a sleek black Lexus. wahahaha~ Anyway, thanks to Yuli, Evelyn and Eri for the and1 sweater...its awesome!

My dad came over to melbourne from the weekend, spent some time with him talkin'~ it's nice to catch up with my dad! its funny when he talks about something he's really into...like property. goes something like this...
"...and so when the market collapses, alot of people get affected you know"
"i know dad"
"Like your mom's friend...you know? Sometimes people get a loan from the bank for say..80%. Then they buy a property for say...$600,000? You know?"
"i know dad"
"Then the market collapses...blah blah blah"
*nods head*
"and then, he wil incur a loss of...blah blah blah"
*nods head*
"....of which, the yield is...blah blah blah"
*sinks into seat*
"...and finally, the feasibility is...blah blah blah"
*eyes open*
"...and then ah, there was this time back in '88 when...blah blah blah"
*snore*

hahahaha...and he goes on! but it's good to see him so amped when he talks about business. like there's this glimmer in his eyes and he's suddenly younger by 10 years...

"...cong qian, cong qian...you ge ren ai ni hen jiu~~~~~"

Its been great~!
haha...first off, i would like to thank everyone for a lettin' me have wonderful 18th birthday! it was awesome! haha..actually, i'm just sort of glad that people (or anyone for that matter) even remembered my birthday...well, i didn't right until the night before. Thanks to everyone down here in melb, (the guys: Charles, Rusty, Vince, Steven, Chris, Kev, Will, Ardi? -gals: Su, Mich, Sofia, Louise, Viv...and all of PHOS~! not forgetting Albert and Maxim! haha..) as well as those back there in S'pore who sent birthday wishes, (davin, raine, peiwen, etc etc) and last but not least...my fam~! Its been great~ thanks again everyone!! :)

Still being bothered by this damn flu....and assignments aplenty~ better get back to it now that my birthday's over...

*sigh*

*sniff~*
well yes i have got the flu. maaaaaaaan~ being sick sucks so bad. can barely breathe. (well, that is an exaggeration, but i DO find it hard to breathe through my nose). Yes, this is kind of a lame entry to my blog, but i'm feeling so shit right now i cant think of anything to write about.

Went to watch a movie yesterday! It was great~! (good) movies are so cool... watched American Pie: The Wedding...was good! hahaha...humour was abit shallow and predictable, but overall, i still think it's one of the funnier shows i've seen~ no, i'm no cinema critic, nor am i a movie buff, but if u want my opinion on the movie, i (sort of) recommend it! but i'm not sure if you can watch it in singapore (yet) though...i think the boring film censors will rate it as R(A) for its american frat house-themed jokes. serious~!

Went on a field trip to the ranches in the countryside just outside lilydale today for history....was kinda fun~ We visited all the really old shacks and barnyards, including stables complete with the local farm animals, and some really awesome scenery. The picture i took below was really just a compromise; a passing dark cloud had covered the valley i had intended to capture on film, leaving me with: an unused cart. haha...not really but it makes up a nice picture still with all the lush greenery, scenic hills and the beautiful sky....

There is a light
trees that cry, a glimmer of hope
the dew drops shine
and become one
with the beauty of words there is song
but a hymn enchants the land
A glimpse of joy
covers the trees and embraces them
holds them tight
daren't let go
among this there is a crack
a weakness revealed
tears hold back, but cannot last
emotions flow
and through this moment
Believe
there is love

what can i say? welcome to the latest addition of the terra kobe website. my blog.
jeez, that was so lame wasn't it? how boring. how unenthusiastic. how... yuck~ :P Shoulda came up with something else. Something that could like at least well, be a valid reason for someone to read my blog sometimes. But what? how can i garner some or any form of respect and attention for the words that i write everyday? WHO in the world would wanna give a damn about my everyday thoughts? erm...no one? My thoughts exactly....wuahahaha~ :P


haha..not to get this all started on a bad note, but i am feeling kinda pooped. hence the negativity of the above paragraph. slept at like 4am yesterday...didnt really sleep well and crawled out of the house by 8.30am to fairfield. Wanna know where that is? its waaaay out in the suburbs. like an hour and a half by train or something. or so i thought. the whole trip took an arduous, somewhat torturous, all of an amazing....45minutes. What the? and my appointment was at 10am. How nice.

Anyway, after the (somewhat) fruitless site visit in fairfield, we adjourned to the nearby fish & chips joint for lunch. Right this is what we ordered: 2 fish fillets, 2 dimsims(some weird eastmeetswest spawn of australian cuisine?), 4 potato cakes and chips. that would've been okay for two people (only ONE guy showed up). BUT, here's what we got: 2 fish fillets 5(!) dimsims, 8(!) potato cakes and like a year's worth of chips. Questioning what on earth possessed this insane man to give us so much is quite beyond me. "I gave these to you guys for free. Eat up! Or else..." The challenge was on. Pride being our most treasured(i'm sure) possession, we accepted. How dumb. Let's just say i am never touching fish and chips again.

School later was so...punishing. With our stomachs really like gonna pecha anytime, the worst lecturer on the face of the earth definitely didn't help. Asking tutors questions and research at the library later was rather labourious too. by this time, my bed was all i could think about. but having 3 assignments due in the next 5 days? Okaaaay~ what can i do? plod along.

well...i guess thats it for now, hafta go to the library to study like till' 10pm. its about 7...which means i'm past my schedule. which means i leave the library at 11. hahaha...sian hor. well...like wats my problem. like watever. wuahahaha~ kk..i'd better wrap this up...hope someone (anyone) will read my blog. haha...cheerio :)