sigh. can't sleep again. What's happening? It's the holidays for goodness sake! I'm supposed to be carefree! not a worry in the world! lol. hmmm...maybe not....i have some stuff to hand in tmr and supposed to be doing my assignment too...meeting max and steve in the morning...man~

Maybe that's why i can't get to sleep...or fall asleep for that matter.

Just read my round of blogs...my condolences to ming's fren's fam...coincides with a paragraph on bong's blog, like she knew about it and is writing her feelings on 'doing silly things'. I personally think that well, it IS foolish. But then on the other hand, in that point in time, he was probably blinded and consumed by jealousy and hurt and what have you to think logically. Maybe he just couldn't get over it. Couldn't accept it. That's why he took his life.

I believe that, to some extent, you should never trust and be consumed by the love for someone completely. Cos' what should happen if that someone is gone? You'll just crumble away and die. Except for one instance. Perhaps the only one we can trust and give our hearts to completely is our Lord Christ Jesus, for it is He and only He who will never break our trust...and will never leave you...always. Yeah i do feel sorry for those innocent girls/guys whose only fault was loving someone too deeply and trusting someone too much. The 'heart-broken' as my mom likes to say. haha.I feel like...well..for those who are heartbroken...you can never be able be the person you truely have the potential to be unless you get over it. There is so much out there in life to accomplish...the joy you can bring to people...the differences you can make in other people's lives. Never mind if you don't get the appreciation that you deserve. It's a different kind of joy. a kind of satisfaction. One that, well, won't be short lived. It's not intense...more mellow..calm...like a smile, not laughter. Would you rather one person remember you when you are gone and beat themselves up over your passing, or many many others remembering you for what you did in their lives, for making a difference. For bringing them joy when they are down, for changing their lives for the better.

Through which would life be more meaningful?


"...and there's a danger in loving somebody too much...
...and it's sad when you know, it's your heart they can't touch...
...there's a reason why people don't stay who they are...

...cos' baby sometimes love just ain't enough..."