I'm starting to get that old feeling again. well, don't really know how to explain it. just that feeling. It comes and goes just as quick. Intense bursts....evanescent. Nostalgia perhaps? Even i can't comprehend it, let alone describe it. It makes me feel...well, more complete i guess. Makes me appreciate what i have. Allows me to really really have fun again. Somehow it seems i've forgotten how it is to savour every moment of the day, how to enjoy life like i used to..it's like..a kind of fondness..for how things are? like..how your life is? Its strange really..but when you're really happy with everything around you and how things are..somehow..mmm....i guess its really memorable. Gives you a sense of satisfaction. I always feel that when i'm back in Singapore. Like even when i'm doing nothing. Nothing at all, i'm still happy. At least, happier than here some time back..when i just felt empty. Its really a sense of identity perhaps..a sense of home. A place where you've grown to know and love...a place filled with joy and wonderful times..and wonderful people. Its where i feel comfortable, not just with everything else, but with myself. A sense of identity and completeness.

On the flipside, it ain't all bad down here in melbourne too. Well, it was, for a while. But that time is gone and what counts is NOW. Thats why, like i said in the start, i'm begining to get that feeling again! =) hahaha..i'm really bonding with all the dudes..getting more comfortable with everything. Chilling out..having fun! Suddenly, when you look at things from another perspective, you realise just how much you've been missing out. There are certain things that i've overlooked in the past. Things of which i have come to realise and rectify..and perhaps my efforts have somewhat paid off, because i have seen a change in a lot of things since then. However, i do recognise that i've grown. (well, not physically.. =P) and i'm not the same person i was before. It is time to look at life differently now. There are new responsibilities and roles to assume. It was fun being a kid. It has been excellent growing up, and continuing to grow as we face new challenges and difficulties that lie upon us. I pray that He will look out for us and guide us along our paths through this journey of life.

And yet, in the end, i am still the same person no matter where i am or how things are. There is no point and no way that i can be someone else or try to be for that matter. No matter what happens, I will still be me. wahahahaha~

man, i can't wait for the exams to end...
fun awaits~ heheh

=)

"....chen mo zhi cheng yao guo mo shen....
....jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun....
....ni de sheng ying....si qu ping hen....
....man man xia chen....

...xiang hui dao guo qu...."